Inner Monologue

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Into the Void

Posted By Jenny Wilde on June 30, 2010

Now what…(?)
I mean, ok, I’m done with . This is a very good thing; I know it and feel it deeply, profoundly. My desire to go on to grad has abated for the moment, but I do still want the MFA.

Why?

Because.

I really can’t give a better reason, I just want it because I’ve always wanted it. Because.

So, that’s all fine and everything.
I’m feeling remarkably tired these days even though I have far less to do. I think it’s a factor of my slowing down: now I’m actually noticing how tired I am because I’m stopping to smell the roses (or coffee), and stuff. No more onward and upward for me. Time for a . Or many.

I’m trying to get back to . It’s something I’ve always enjoyed and I still do (once I manage to overcome my inclination to do absolutely nothing for several months). I also enjoy eating cooked from scratch; I used to be quite a purist about that sort of thing before frozen organic vegetables packaged in plastic bags became a staple in my household. (sigh)

To that end, tonight I decided to be resourceful and make some from leftover cooked brown . Yes, brown (!). Already a red warning light is going off in your head, I can tell. No one makes with brown ! It won’t be, well, mushy enough! It was slightly overcooked actually and I decided to go for it. I also just hate to waste and since the microwave died it’s not very convenient to reheat anything (that’s a whole other ongoing misadventure in my kitchen life).

Anyway, it was going to be. Only one recipe in Joy of but it seemed alright; the Joy of is always a good place to start. The recipe seemed to be more of a baked recipe than a recipe but that’s ok with me, I like too. I substituted freshly squeezed grapefruit juice and grapefruit zest for the lemon juice and zest and skipped lining the pan with cake crumbs, both because I didn’t have any and because I’d never heard of such a thing when it comes to . Oh, and I cooked it in a water bath because that’s what you do with baked custards. Other than the aforementioned minor alterations, I followed the recipe exactly. All the proportions were just as specified.

Looks yummy, no?

It is yummy, though a bit more ricey than puddingy. The kids were suspicious.

Not a light dessert.

Actually, eating it reminds me of the raisins and my mom used to make for breakfast sometimes: leftover heated in a pan with milk, butter, raisins, and maybe honey. Good solid comfort , and not too bad for you as long as you kept the butter to a relative minimum (hard for me, I love butter).

Tomorrow: banana bread and, here’s hoping, plum jam. Got to get that started before all those luscious plums go bad.

What does have to do with , you might reasonably ask, now that I’ve racked up so much debt getting my fancy degree? A fine question.

One could argue that everything is , but I won’t get into that.

Chop wood carry water, you know…


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One Response to “Into the Void”

  1. emily says:

    i absolutely agree, there is some correlation between cooking and art… i also have no idea what it might be. but i did a heck of a lot of cooking in this past year between getting the amazingly expensive BFA and…. well, leaving for grad school, I guess!

    and you know what, I ask myself every day why the heck i’m bothering to spend another three years in a country renowned for its unforgivingly snowy winters pursuing another arts degree, and i don’t really come up with anything better than “because” either.

    anyway glad to see you’re writing here…. i’ll send the link to my almost non-existent blog once it’s more, um, existent. (is that a word?) at least I get to see you in cyberspace. :)

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